Posts: 1 | Joined: 3rd Nov 06
this is gonna sound really harsh. but i do want a baby, i do want this baby. but after just having found out what the sex is(female) last wk at my 20 week scan, i've been nothing but depressed. I was really hoping for a boy, mainly because no mothers in my family get on with thier daughters, especially me and my mother. i'm only 18 years old and i hated my childhood. but now all i want is to give my own child a better childhood and achance at living a beautiful life, but i'm feeling i can't do this because she's going to be a girl? i keep having nightmares that once shes born she'll have to be taken away from me because i won't be able to love her even if i want to. my boyfriend has said that things will be different for me and my daughter but how is he to know? he wants this child as much as i do. he already has a child though, a son, which makes me dig at him most times because i wanted a son. so i'm falling apart and our relashionship is too all because i'm being so selfish? or what? i don't know. i need some advice. ive been to the doctor but they just said they cant do anything for me so im scared of going back and them just sending me away again.